With Hubs gone for 2-4 weeks while he searches for a job and a home for us almost 4 hours away, I am on my own. It’s a 6 to 1 ratio, and those odds are not great! To be honest.. I am SCARED!! Already the kids are testing boundaries, and seeing how far they can take the not doing something when told, or purposely doing something they know that they are not supposed to do, just to see what I will do. I hate that I have to be completely unbending. Yet I know that one ounce of softness and they will descend on me like piranhas!
Even the toddler has decided she will push every button I have! Refusing to go to bed, climbing out of her play pen. Throwing temper tantrums over the craziest things. I was up until almost 2 a.m with her last night. Putting her back in bed, having her climb out, putting her back, having her climb out! Finally in exhaustion, I gave up and took her to bed with me. That is NOT something I want to start again. While I love sleeping with my kids, all warm and snuggly, she sleeps like a helicopter! Literally. Arms flung, covers off, right side up one minute, upside down the next, hanging off the bed with legs dangling a minute after that. I have woken up to large bruises covering my arms and legs and even face from her flinging body parts around in her sleep!
I also HAVE to have the covers on to sleep! It can be 100 degrees and I will be covered up! But she insists on pulling the covers off me, so I simply can not sleep with her in our bed!
Did I mention that we school year round, and are finishing up a break?! So we will be starting school back up on Tuesday! Actually Monday will be a school day, just not workbooks and all that. We will be doing short lessons on different wars, and the meaning of Memorial Day. I hope. If I am not strung up and hanging from the ceiling fan by then.
We will also be trying out a new church tomorrow. Yea, me and my 6, headed to a new church, where we know no one.. should be great. Do you know that I am super shy in person.. I usually hide BEHIND my husband when we go places… or use the baby as an excuse to not talk to anyone. “Oh she needs a diaper, or she’s hungry.. BYE! “
I read somewhere yesterday.. “Keep pushing my buttons and your bound to hit the kill switch sooner or later”… I am so getting a tee-shirt with that on it!
But anyway.. my point in all this.. yes there is one… is that I heard a song.. and it hit me. I don’t have to do this alone.. I can’t do this alone. I can’t do this with Hubs here! It is only by the grace of God that I get through a day, alive and with as many kids as I started the day out with. Cause He knows how easily I lose things! ( I did lose Little Man in a grocery store once.. for almost 20 minutes before I even realized he was gone and that was MY name they were calling over the loud speakers! SCARY!!) This song says it all…
Have a great day.. and don’t go it alone!